Boob food

I knew I wanted to breastfeed. I knew it can be difficult and painful but I didn't realize how much until I was in the midst of doing it.

I was lucky that I got to breastfeed Chloe a couple times within the first hour she was born. I was also lucky that she latched on so easily too. However, I soon learned how painful breastfeeding can be.

It was painful because I wasn't used to it but I also think with her being so tiny had something to do with it too. I don't think she could completely latch properly because of her small mouth and my ginormous you know whats. It took about two and a half weeks until breastfeeding felt normal but latching wasn't my only issue.

Cluster feeding is a term that will always be burned deeply into my brain. I had never heard of such a thing until I lived through it. Not only is it painful when you first start out breastfeeding but also mentally trying.

I had a few breakdowns. She was only cluster feeding between the hours of 1-6am and it was constant. To the point were she would only unlatch for 5-10 minutes between feedings, so basically I was nonstop nursing her for hours on end. How the heck could such a small being consume so much?

It's been over a month now and I'm happy I never gave up. I never really thought about giving up either. Sure, it's not easy still because when I'm not in the comfort of my own home, I have to sneak away and feed her...a lot usually. I'm not comfortable enough yet to breastfeed in front of people. Who knows, maybe one day I will be.

What I do know is that I get to enjoy the look on her face when her belly is full of the milk I have provided for her!